Where do you go when you're lonely?

It's like you've been waiting for summer all year, and now you would give anything to go back a couple of months. But it's nice knowing they're still here, somehow. And yes, maybe our parents are actually right when they say "technology nowadays save us many problems". It's nice to turn your computer on, and checking your inboxes and knowing that they've been thinking about you for a couple of minutes at least. And then you answer, so they remember you for another minute, and so on. "No, i like it when you talk. It makes me feel like you're not that far away". It may sound cheesy, I know. Those who know me, know how cheesy I can sound. but what's wrong with wanting to go back a few weeks... And just hug them again, or have another sleepover and maybe another Monday after school catching up on everything... How pathetic did I look that day in the train, writing a letter, and tears falling?
It doesn't matter how much I write about my feelings on this stupid page. It won't change anything. But sometimes you just can't find the right person to tell how you're feeling. Maybe it's even better to write it here, where you may feel like you're telling someone, but you're actually not. Maybe no one will even read this. I've just had enough of goodbyes for the last couple of weeks. And yes, let's hope they're actually not goodbyes.. and with a little bit of hope they're another "see you later". It just makes us feel so much better thinking about it that way. But... what if in a couple of days, I'll have to say a real goodbye? and not even having the person next to me.. I won't be able to send them anything so they remember me for another minute, they won't even be there to read it. How does it even feel to lose someone so close? I guess that what they say is actually true. "you never know what you have, until you lose it." But, what if you don't wanna lose it? what other ways can we chose to never lose him? Is there any way at all?... I know this doesn't even make sense, but it feels better to have it written down than have all these thoughts exploding in your head.

And now I actually do hope nobody reads this.
It just feels nice to be telling anyone, and hoping they understand.

Nos fuimos...

CAMPING
yuuuuhhhuuuuuuuuu
hasta nunca baby ;)

I WANT TO HOLD YOUR HAND

We're done. Finito. Acabamos.
Ahhh, this year went by too fast. and it was AMAZING. and camping in two days, ahhh. we've been waiting for this all year! I never know how to feel at this time of the year. happy because it's over and because it's summer... but having to say goodbye? ugh. I'm gonna miss them so so so much. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much.

Halfway Through :]

4/8.
Four more to go, and... we're done ;)
SUMMER.

BYE BYE LIFE. SEE YOU IN A WEEK

FINALS.

let's die.
shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit
I need to get good grades. or I'll die. FML.
at least the weather is on our side. It's nice to look out the window and see the rain. You feel like your not the only miserable one. Like more people have to stay home... and it's nice not having to hear your neighbors enjoying the pool while you're trying to studying ;)
wish me good luck.

NEW DRUG (?)

I guess I just created another drug. I hope I won't use this as often as facebook or fotolog. Or maybe I will... Great time to get a blog: right before FINALS. yay me.

Ink slides through a piece of paper as if it were poison trying to burn your tongue... As if her white and cold skin, lying right next to you, might become warmer with the breeze peeking in through the small window on the corner. It's too bright to open your eyes wide enough to realize she looks even prettier than she did yesterday.
-NZ