Andorra

BACK!!
AMAZING ANDORRA.
1 DAY FOR BOOBIES.
2DAYS FOR JAMIESON.
AND I LOVE WINTER BREAK.

I'm finally going to Andorra, which seems to be one of the only good things about winter. I hate the cold, and not being able to leave your house because it's raining or because its negative degrees outside. I wouldn't mind summer and shorts and flip flops and sea right now, but oh well. Something good about winter? YESH. SNOW SNOW SNOW. Snowboarding, Skiing:) ahhh. Good Life. I've been waiting to slide down a slope for a few months and I feel like the skiing cold is the only cold I don't actually mind that much.

And when I come back, one more day, and Johanna is here. And then next day after Johanna gets here, Jamie gets here. And then party with some of the "good old gang" and then New Year's and then they both leave and then back to school...

Let's enjoy the break for now:)

Hasta nunca baby

The smell of cigarette smoke hangs in our hair,
but we won't wash it out cause we don't care at all,
not for now.

With the taste of alcohol on our teeth and the smell of someone else on our sheets, we'll sleep, till tomorrow.

We'd give everything for the ones that we're with,
that's how we know what love truly is, yeah I, think that we know.

Sometimes I wish we were on the moon so our footprints in the sand wouldn't fade so soon, oh how, how I wish.

Oh, oh a woah oh. Oh oh oh, oh a woah.

(I was singing this to myself today on my way back home and ahh, so many memories, tear... But winter breaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaak, and jamie and johanna make me smile. :D)

FINALS.
6 DAYS.
AND THEN WINTER BREAK AND JAMIE AND JOHANNA AND SNOW
.that's all I have to say today (:
good luck to all

COUNTDOWN

I want snow, break, ski, snowboarding, and lots of time to bother about nothing at all.

Can't wait to hug Jamieson and my boobies, and can't wait to party again with these two and can't wait to even see them after aaaaaggggeeeeesss. I don't even think they are aware of how much i NEED them. And I can't wait for winter break and for a break from school. And I can't wait to finish finals (which haven't even started). And New Year's and going back to last year for a couple of weeks.
Ah, finally something to look forward to.

"You become who you want to become. Who you try to become. You're not what destiny choses for you. You try hard. Smile about every single detail around you. Make the friends you want; those who you will love and will love you without exceptions. Live the life you want, and you'll see how you finally become the happiest girl on Earth."

Although we complain about the rain outside our windows, I find it quite inspiring. Lately, the weather in Barcelona sucks. But just now I realized I had been sitting in my desk staring outside the window for almost 10 minutes. And Olivia is in Barcelona, and Gaby is getting here on Friday. But the rain outside sucks. We were planning on going to the mountain again, since we haven't gone since summer. But I guess the weather wants everyone else to be here too.

At The Bottom of Everything

So there was this woman and she was on an airplane, and she was flying to meet her fiancé seaming high above the largest ocean on planet earth. She was seated next to this man she had tried to start conversations, but the only thing she had really heard him say was to order his Bloody Mary. She was sitting there and she was reading this really arduous magazine article about a third world country that she couldn’t even pronounce the name of. And she was feeling very bored and despondent. And then suddenly there was this huge mechanical failure and one of the engines gave out, and they started just falling thirty-thousand feet, and the pilots on the microphone and he’s saying “I’m sorry, I’m sorry, oh my god... I'm sorry” and apologizing. And she looks at the man and says “Where are we going?” and he looks at her and he says “We’re going to a party. It’s a birthday party. It’s your birthday party. Happy birthday darling. We love you very, very, very, very, very, very, very much.” And then he starts humming this little tune, it kind of goes like this: 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4...


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qikRcAiCtKM

I haven't written on this thing in a really long time. It seemed like I didn't really have anything to say. Life just went on. Things changed, people were always missing, and places seemed different. I feel like everything around me brang memories back. Even the smallest detail in a gift shop in barcelona, or a lighter, or postcards, or parks where we would sit down and chill with the people we care about. And it's not like I don't have any of that anymore, because I do. But I'm missing lot's of things. And I guess things couldn't go that well for too long. Everything seemed too fine lately. And i guess I'm having a breakdown now. And school isn't helping at all.

A Man From Argentina / Billy the Vision and The Dancers

Never Enough

It's the love you get, the love you receive.. they all sum up to who you are now, who you will become, someday, somehow. And then you begin to worry about it, start drowning your face with tears complaining about the little love you receive, when everyone is far away from you. You begin to cry, you want their hugs, their kisses. Sometimes even a smile is enough. Tears, more tears. But then you look back, and feel stupid. Nothing has an end. You'll still receive love, and you'll always give some too... It's never enough.






(this blog is DEAD)

I'm feeling happy.
Boobies is back in barcelona for la mercé, and I skyped with jamieson today. However, my blog is pretty much dead. I guess IB is too much for me; I can't even get to jot down some nice sentences in here. IB art is killing me. Free time? what's that? I keep on remembering that bumper sticker: WELCOME TO THE IB, CHOOSE ONE: social life, good grades, enough sleep. it finally makes sense. But hey, tomorrow is la mercé. Shall we please make it another memorable night, like last years? :] (missing lots of people, though)

Mucho love for all

6DAYS! :]

hmm. I haven't really being inspired since my last blog update, so I guess that's why I haven't even checked my blog since. but today I woke up and I realized I'll see my other boob in just 6 days, so I'm excited :)

Hm, I'm going shopping today :] But it's so depressing how everything is already the autumn/winter collection. NOOO I want summer back already!
and i miss jamieson, <3

Foto: Ilha de Tavira, Portugal
School start's tomorrow. I don't even think I have to say anything about it, since I've been complaining about it for the last month. Repeating over and over again how I'm gonna die and fail the IB and how horrible and painful it's gonna be. Oh well. wish me luck. I'm gonna need it. I hope I get a good locker at least. One in the middle, perhaps? for the first time in my life? Actually I had one in the middle during 9th grade.. but I wasn't AS short then. Hmm. It sucks being short. Bleghhhhhh. FML.

I really really really really don't wanna go back :(

Something's Missing...

When autumn comes, it doesnt ask.
It just walks in, where it left you last.
And you never know, when it starts
Until there's fog inside the glass around your summer heart:

Something's missing
And I don't know how to fix it
something's missing
And I don't know what it is
At all..

Love Comes - The Posies

Add up the sum of the slights and
Sooner or later
Love comes inside you, gets behind you
Takes you under it's wing..

-


School hasn't even started and all I'm feeling lately is laziness. But at the same time I wanna go outside and enjoy my last days of freedom, but ughhhh so much work. I hope something really bad happens and school is postponed to maybe... a month later? Yup, I wouldn't mind one more month of happiness :)
mucho love.

Jamieson's Summer Anthem

sometimes i wish we were on the moon so our footsteps wouldn't fade so soon.
I'm still listening to the song in the background. over and over again. It brings back too many memories. UGH "It's not perfect but I hope it's still meaningful." More than meaningful. In 5.15 minutes(and the next 2 hours) all I was thinking about was camping, sleepovers, mountain, barceloneta... even recess. UGH. UGH. UGH. UGH. I had forgotten exactly how much I missed all of that. Ahh. I remember the first time she actually sung that song (during camping) and how much we cried. "well, it feels good to know it made you guys cry" aaah jamieson I hate you (not really.) In the years to come we'll always remember the ones that we share these moments with.Okay so I'm going through a very nostalgic moment right now, but I can't really say much about it except that I miss you guys so much and I miss every single unimportant moment with you all. I wish you all the best of luck, wherever you are. saying goodbye is never easy, saying hello is just so natural for me. <3

She's Everything / Brad Paisley

She's a yellow pair of running shoes
A holey pair of jeans
She looks great in cheap sunglasses
She looks great in anything
She's I want a piece of chocolate
Take me to a movie
She's I can't find a thing to wear
Now and then she's moody

She's a Saturn with a sunroof
With her brown hair a-blowin
She's a soft place to land
And a good feeling knowing
She's a warm conversation
That I wouldn't miss for nothing
She's a fighter when she's mad
And she's a lover when she's loving

And she's everything I ever wanted
And everything I need
I talk about her, I go on and on and on
because she's everything to me

She's a Saturday out on the town
And a church girl on Sunday
She's a cross around her neck
And a cuss word 'cause its Monday
She's a bubble bath and candles
Baby come and kiss me
She's a one glass of wine
And she's feeling kinda tipsy...


just said bye to gaby :(

So just call on me brother, when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on

Lean on me when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
Till I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on..

<3

Back Home.

and wishing some people were here to celebrate my birthday with me.

Hello World.

Volví del majané y como todo lo demás, "todo lo bueno se acaba".
I miss people, i miss things, i miss places, i miss hugs, i miss too many things. And summer is going by too fast, too fast for my eyes to even stop and take a look at it. I get really frustrated having to stay home even if it's only for one day, when it's so nice outside, and so many nice things are waiting for us to look at them. Ahhh I feel like I'm stuck in time, but not the type of time that goes by slowly, but too fast. Blabalabalbla. none of my posts make sense, but its nice to type things that don't make sense :)
and I'm gonna finish this post with a very smart quote I like from a very stupid disney channel TV show, (YES IM ANOTHER DISNEY CHANNEL ADDICT).
"Life if easy if you wear a smile"

Byebyeeee.
I miss you boobies and jamiesonn <3

It's gonna be alright

Rise up this mornin,
Smiled with the risin sun,
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstep
Singin sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true,
Sayin, (this is my message to you-ou-ou:)

Singin: dont worry bout a thing,
cause every little thing gonna be all right.
Singin: dont worry (dont worry) bout a thing,
cause every little thing gonna be all right!


Picture: THE Mountain.
(That's all I have to say)
I'm leaving tomorrow. Hasta la vista, baby.

Live High / Jason Mraz.

I've had too many thoughts on my mind lately, I don't even know how to write them down. It feels like the disappointment a little kid starts to feel when he can't see the beauty in those small bubbles anymore, after having seen those amazing big ones. (This reflection because of the bubble show I went to yesterday).


Ugh, I hate it when they ask you if you're okay, and you say you can't stand all these goodbyes and they say "don't worry, you can still keep in touch" or "you can make new friends!". Some people just don't understand it won't be the same. When you finally feel happy in this place, with those friends... You don't even have enough time to realize how fast everything happens. I wouldn't mind going back a few weeks.. Camping, maybe?
Live High/Jason Mraz. Everything about this song, I can't stop listening to it. So many memories.


Hahaha. i just realized how depressing my posts are. Oh well.


I went to a bubble show yesterday with my cousins who are visiting. It was nice. Smoke bubbles, big bubbles, millions of tiny bubbles.. haha too long though :S And after that, montjuic fountains. I just love that place. I wouldn't mind going there everyday :)
Haha this post is a mess.


(I miss you Boobies)

Where do you go when you're lonely?

It's like you've been waiting for summer all year, and now you would give anything to go back a couple of months. But it's nice knowing they're still here, somehow. And yes, maybe our parents are actually right when they say "technology nowadays save us many problems". It's nice to turn your computer on, and checking your inboxes and knowing that they've been thinking about you for a couple of minutes at least. And then you answer, so they remember you for another minute, and so on. "No, i like it when you talk. It makes me feel like you're not that far away". It may sound cheesy, I know. Those who know me, know how cheesy I can sound. but what's wrong with wanting to go back a few weeks... And just hug them again, or have another sleepover and maybe another Monday after school catching up on everything... How pathetic did I look that day in the train, writing a letter, and tears falling?
It doesn't matter how much I write about my feelings on this stupid page. It won't change anything. But sometimes you just can't find the right person to tell how you're feeling. Maybe it's even better to write it here, where you may feel like you're telling someone, but you're actually not. Maybe no one will even read this. I've just had enough of goodbyes for the last couple of weeks. And yes, let's hope they're actually not goodbyes.. and with a little bit of hope they're another "see you later". It just makes us feel so much better thinking about it that way. But... what if in a couple of days, I'll have to say a real goodbye? and not even having the person next to me.. I won't be able to send them anything so they remember me for another minute, they won't even be there to read it. How does it even feel to lose someone so close? I guess that what they say is actually true. "you never know what you have, until you lose it." But, what if you don't wanna lose it? what other ways can we chose to never lose him? Is there any way at all?... I know this doesn't even make sense, but it feels better to have it written down than have all these thoughts exploding in your head.

And now I actually do hope nobody reads this.
It just feels nice to be telling anyone, and hoping they understand.

Nos fuimos...

CAMPING
yuuuuhhhuuuuuuuuu
hasta nunca baby ;)

I WANT TO HOLD YOUR HAND

We're done. Finito. Acabamos.
Ahhh, this year went by too fast. and it was AMAZING. and camping in two days, ahhh. we've been waiting for this all year! I never know how to feel at this time of the year. happy because it's over and because it's summer... but having to say goodbye? ugh. I'm gonna miss them so so so much. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much.

Halfway Through :]

4/8.
Four more to go, and... we're done ;)
SUMMER.

BYE BYE LIFE. SEE YOU IN A WEEK

FINALS.

let's die.
shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit
I need to get good grades. or I'll die. FML.
at least the weather is on our side. It's nice to look out the window and see the rain. You feel like your not the only miserable one. Like more people have to stay home... and it's nice not having to hear your neighbors enjoying the pool while you're trying to studying ;)
wish me good luck.

NEW DRUG (?)

I guess I just created another drug. I hope I won't use this as often as facebook or fotolog. Or maybe I will... Great time to get a blog: right before FINALS. yay me.

Ink slides through a piece of paper as if it were poison trying to burn your tongue... As if her white and cold skin, lying right next to you, might become warmer with the breeze peeking in through the small window on the corner. It's too bright to open your eyes wide enough to realize she looks even prettier than she did yesterday.
-NZ